Saturday, November 14, 2009

i m surprised how well my memory serves me from yesterdays trip on the bus. especially the former two tracks. the kinda music that befits the situation and tugs the heart strings.

u said to me last night. that it could be a matter of time before a person reverts to his old self. even tho the statement was made in reference to the other one, rather than me. i asked myself. so which is the real me. which is the season in which i m reverting to my true self?

but one thing is normal. one thing is a sure fact. apart from God, we only know how to live for ourselves. its a part of us that needs to be constantly renewed. when we find God. we find love. when we find love, in its most pure essence, from its unlimited source. its overwhelms us and flows out.

till then, we simply live in the loveless desert. with a vague idea of wad we are looking for. so deprived that our senses may fail us. but wasting away. hallucinating wad we want for wad something could really be. and therefore taking wadever that that can be taken. even if it just gives us a trace or ounce of wad we are looking for. even if, it ll hurt us. those out in the desert, might just take their chances on chewing the cactus. probably wad we call, looking for love in all the wrong places, in all the wrong faces, in all the wrong phases.

so i listened to this song. i must say at least 8 times since my duty started. felt sad. definitely. but u know wad. when it all started out. before we both lost sight, turned into cactus es and started chewing each others' needles. it was because we had love from its most pure essence and source. it drew us together. and i m confident that it ll draw us back. so wad is the self i m reverting to?? wad is the self i wanna revert to? its the one that had love from its most pure essence and source. this is the season.

'There is nothing we can do to move past this'
'Our time has moved past us'

I m having none of it.
Revert to the first stanza.
And the rest of the lyrics,
Will never apply again,
I ll write my own remainder.

In doing so,
I m just gonna keep running.
And run like i never have before ...

|cowpoo| 8:03 AM|

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